The Dark Night Of The Soul Do you know the purpose of your life?  Have you crashed?  Are you tired of doing the same things day after day?  Are you not satisfied with the current religions that attempt to spell out their version of life?  Do you follow blindly your own beliefs or are you a follower of others.  Can you see that life is no accident?  Do you know why so called bad things happen to good people?   Are you under a belief that you are the cause of all circumstances in your life?  And as such can control all events in your life using your own free will?  Or do you just accept all things in your life and see them as signs on the open road that show you the way?  Do you want to do everything your way or can you accept that their is a Divine way? The Divine way being the way where all act for the greater good in unison.  The greater good being activities that lead to Beauty, Wisdom, Power and Will. Are you ready to accept a guru?  Or have you gone past guru’s?  The simple fact is that we can only teach ourselves.  Those who follow a guru are simply the blind leading the blind.   However we can have guides that reflect to us what we can’t see.  For one who is in the picture can’t see the picture till one gets out the picture. For more information see http://www.cosmiccourier.com    The human has to learn that you don't get anything for nothing. However we are all entitled to get more.  'The more' I talk about is more joy and abundance of life. Though I know that income is not everything in this world, if this world needs my work and wisdom then I require money for a decent computer and web page. I no longer have any concerns for trying to shift the world. Though my job on Earth is to assist the human I can do nothing unless higher energies assist me with the bills. I know that sometime the human will require assistance when they collapse. Unfortunately you can't assist those that don't realise that they are living in a bubble. I Life Getting You Down Are you enjoying life?  Have you got a life?  Got a nice boy friend or girl friend?  Have you got more then one?  Are you a prostitute? No  way!, you are the one with out a life.  I have lots of boy friends that are bent around my little finger.  I am the one who enjoys life.  Look at you always cleaning.  I go to parties all the time but what about you? Can’t you see that you are on a merry go round.  You are never satisfied and always looking for love. What has this search for love got you?  Simple all you have got is a diseased body.  Anyone who is awake can see that you are not healthy.  Look at your skin!, Look at your colour.!  I have no pity for any man who you entice as they are blind also and deserve to share in your disease. I am not a prostitute as I have a house and a daughter. Is it not true that you struggle to make the house loan repayments?  Any one else with an ounce of intelligence would  be satisfied to live within their means and have a cheaper house or duplex.  But you don’t want the image of how well you are doing broken.  You say that others need to get a life while you have become a slave to a house loan.    As for being a prostitute you don’t charge cash but the men pay by giving you security and peace of mind.  Therefore you are definitely a prostitute who is fussy about the type of payment that you receive.  Do these men in your life look after your daughter?  No, you just dump your daughter anywhere when you want to go out.  Do you know the men you invite into your house well?  What would happen if one of them abused your daughter?   No one would hurt my daughter because I am a Catholic and God would protect me and her. Are you not saying what God should do therefore are you not putting yourself above God.  Fact is that there are no Gods within equality.  The illusion of separation is only an illusion.  All is connected and all comes from ONE.  Creation does not have a beginning hence there is no single being called God.  Time is an illusion   There is always more, even beyond the ONE there is more.  The search for an absolute is only a pipe dream.  There is always more therefore there is no absolute. What you are saying is evil.  I don’t want to hear any more. Good and evil are only states of duality.  What is evil one day becomes good the next.  Look at George Bush, one minute they consider him evil and the next minute good.  It is true that one’s thoughts do create.  And as such one should only concentrate on the highest good.  This is done by serving the ONE.   There is no evil, one can serve the ONE or serve one’s self.  There is nothing wrong with serving one’s self as long as the self is aligned with the highest good.  The trouble is that the self is small compared to the ONE and hence has trouble in making sure that it is indeed aligned with the highest good. All I do is align with God then I know that I work for the highest good. The trouble is even if this God is not an illusion, which I say it is, then you have to humble yourself to this God and the church institution that spreads his word.  When one does humble themself they loose their power.  Being is such a powerless state they lose the ability to reason. In such a state the people become easy to control. How does one regain their power?  The way is simple and that is to hit rock bottom.  When this occurs the human mind flares up and fractures.  Having a fractured mind does not make one crazy, though they may appear so by societies standards. Having a fractured mind enables one to connect with the Greater mind.  The greater mind is not that of God but that of All that is.  First one gains an earthly global mind then an universal mind then a Cosmic mind.   In order for there to be a shift in one’s conscious then one first has to spit out one’s beliefs.  No one likes to be told that they have being living a lie. Meaning in Life This is a reply to Linley’s poem in the Cosmic courier.  The meaning in life is simple for the simple  and complex for the complex.    Life has a different meaning for each but basically for all it is to learn but for others it is to unlearn. Life is for following a pattern, but this pattern is more of a maze. A maze with different levels.  Some are learning that  a dead end is a dead end whichever way it may point, while others are bust trying to direct others out the maze. Unfortunately some of those helping others out don’t realise that they are also in a maze. Notoriety or the search for it becomes the goal of all.  Some seek it while others have it forced upon themselves.  One who does not seek fame is famous due to the fact that he/she becomes a minority.  In other words if one does not follow the norm they gain notoriety. Paradox is the meaning of life.  Find one’s puzzle piece then unite to work for the ONE. Each will find a different role within and that role will vary depending upon the journey one has travelled up the diamond.  When one has reached the point of the diamond all roles merge. At the point the diamond opens or is shattered and out comes the rose.  LOVE flows out. Is this the meaning?  or is it to live without fear?  Are these the same?  For the 37 the meaning is to light the path while for the human it is to follow us.  The paradox is for us to light the way without getting out of balance. In other words to achieve unity, equality and truth.  We lead but have no care if any are following our lead for we are not teachers.  The human will follow as they have no choice. Reflections We all reflect in each other. Some see the reflections and do a feedback and adjust themselves. Others can’t see and continue in total ignorance till they eventually crash. Look around you serendipity is happening all the time. Nothing is an accident. If you do not lack on the inside then you won’t lack on the outside. Who are your friends?  Look at your friends and you can see yourself. Not all have reflections. I have no reflection that is human but when you look at me you can still see yourself. Though I can’t see myself in you.  I am certainly not above you just a little bit down the open road. It is only a matter of sequential events before you reach the stage I’m  at in the now. Now we are in the 5D time does not operate like it did before. Now that you are shifting so is me. The Earth shifting is only the first domino. One can only teach oneself, but how?  By serendipity.  We bounce the ball and this bouncing stirs up all our garbage in our mind. When it comes to the surface we can then deal with it. Trying to be good and ignoring the bad in us won’t work. Having a mind filled with our bad memories is certainly unhealthy for us. An unbalanced mind leads to an unbalanced body. You get nothing in this world for nothing. As such I ask you to look within and ask what gift you can give me for assisting you to balance. In particular a lap top computer  would be nice. If you feel able to donate to me then write to me at <angelical@dododo.com.au>(take off one of the do's, this is to avoid spam). I don’t expect but know that the world will support me in my work. I work less but receive more. No human is supposed to work like a dog.    I have no beliefs so do not align with any religion. I stand within my own energy. I don’t even have guides! Though other Angelics bring things to my attention if I need. Jesus is on the planet and is in business. The base of Jesus is Montecristos. I walk side by side and support Jesus and Montecristos. Though I am not an official presenter for Montecristos as my work lies elsewhere I will however work closely with that of Montecristos. Anyway public speaking has not been my training while writing has. Montecristos is a place where people can come from around the world and be trained by Luxor and Charmielle and the presenters of Montecristos. If you feel within that you need this training then contact Montecristos through their web site at http://www.cosmiccourier.com On behalf of the energies, Al (Apostle Andrew) Recognition and Appreciation   Most humans have the urge to recognisee themselves.  Indeed some are silly enough to take it on themselves to assume the task of recognisee for others.  So people form friends and circles of friends. Groups of friends form towns and cities then countries.   As the majority of people only look outwards they can only see themselves in others.  What they see is themselves reflected in the ego of others.  However the ego is certainly not a good mirror so the image they get is a distorted image.    So having just one friend is not going to work as one friend can only reflect back a distorted image of part of the qualities of the person.  Hence the desire for many friends arises.  Are not the movie stars with many fans more balanced then the average Joe blow?    The trick is not to get many friends but to get a clean mirror.  So the smart humans find the cleanest mirror that they can while the even smarter human starts looking inside and by-passes the need for mirrors.    The ones with the clean mirror are the one’s that are the foundation.  They are the ones that have no ego having merged their ego with that of the greater self.  The foundation is Love which is based on nothingness. The frequency that this Love emits is a nothingness frequency which has a dampening effect on all other frequencies. Contentment is the result. Do not confuse this Love with the human variety.  The human variety of love consists of the mistaken identification of the persona with either the male or female sides of the human.  The result is a gross imbalance and the urge to correct this imbalance. This contentment could also be called appreciation.    For one who is at peace he\she has put the pieces together.  Accept those around you and if you are at peace then they will be at peace.  For one who is in their puzzle piece then those around that one will also gravitate towards their puzzle pieces.    There is a paradox here because the one with no mirror is the one who becomes the clear or clean mirror for others.  This paradox is not solved by going to a higher dimension and looking in.  It can only be solved by going past all dimensions into no dimension or nothingness. Eternally Alan  Paradox is our guide Does paradox exist?  It can be said that there is paradox which is then solved on a higher lever.  Is it really solved or is this just another assumption?  Assumptions may be right or wrong depending on out point of view, Paradox is our guide for logic just closes the mind and causes a mind trap or belief system, All beliefs are caused by our refusal or denial to see paradox. To bypass beliefs then one just accepts paradox.  The trick to accepting paradox is first to see the paradox, Is it not a paradox that I accept that I am a tutor and expect you to follow me.  However what I tutor is how to be individual and balance.  Which results in you standing in your own energy with no controls on you.  In effect the saying that, "one can only teach oneself" is right. There are no controls except one becomes fully controlled.  To take off all controls we put on controls.  The control is love. In this regard it is easier to pass on this energy of love in person,  However the speed of the web makes it far more efficient.  Thus what small loss in the personal touch is made up when our minds meet on a higher level.  However our minds are only conduits for our energy.  So do not give credit to the mind where none is due. To become full of love we do not will it but instead become empty of everything else.  When we are empty we then become vacuums or conduits for energies of love.   See this consumer society trying to fill us with desires to obtain more.  And to option or obtain this more we compete more.  Competing more has a built in assumption.  This assumption is that the loser will find ways to become better. When one can see the trap of this society then one can get out of it.  One would still live it society but the glitter will be gone.   Obtaining more then others does not bring us joy.  The ‘haves’ are not more happy then the ‘have nots’. The ‘haves’ only have more illusion.  The illusion is that they are better then anyone else.   So do the ‘have nots’ have more joy?  They certainly have more of the illusion of inferiority.  In effect these are just two sides of the coin. Does joy come from helping the 'have nots' to become 'haves'?  Certainly not for unless one has a bigger picture then one does not know if they are helping or not. Does not adversity make us strong?  It does if we learn the lesson. Joy comes from our service to the bigger picture.  The biggest picture is serving the ‘ONE’.  This ‘ONE’ is the energy from where we all came.     If anyone talked about paradox in today’s society they will just respond that there can’t be such a thing , it is not logical.  Is not believing in a paradox just another belief which should be tossed out?   Let us be logical and accept only that which adds up.   Let us take the equation   Y=1/X  when Y= infinity does not X=0 or 1/infinity = 0.     Isn’t this logical?   But 1/infinity at the same time is also not equal to 0.  For although there is always more there is no such thing as infinity.  Infinity is an undefined term.     OK,  Let’s take the equation i * i  = -1 where i = the square root of -1 .  But how can the square root of -1 exist?  It is not logical!   Science and Technology has been using complex algebra for years to solve logical equations with an illogical process.   Is not this a paradox?     The field of the complex number plane can be considered to be another dimension and by transferring an equation into this dimension and bringing it back we can solve many equations.   So we can conclude that a paradox only seems a paradox when viewed from a lower dimension.  Hence in our journey from the 3rd to the 5th we can use Paradox as our guide.   For example 3d logic tells us that to meditate on nothing produces nothing.  But in higher dimensions this nothing is more like 1/infinity which is not nothing.  The thinner you spread yourself the more equality with all you have.  The more connected to the ONE you become and the more JOY you obtain.   Isn’t this logical?  See a paradox then step back and back more till the paradox is no more.  Since there is no absolute Truth you will never stop stepping back and hence will never solve the paradox.   Now this makes sense! Feel The Pulse What is it that motivates you?  Would you help an unfortunate person down on his luck? Would you just walk straight by and think this person deserves the lesson he is receiving? Do all the kind hearted people in this world make any difference?  Is there not an endless supply of unfortunate people just begging for help?  Why? Are these unfortunate people down on their luck just reincarnations of people who were rich once or is this just a story? If so then there must have been an age when most were rich with only a few poor people and this is not how society is run.  In society there has always been three groups of people, the ones down on their luck, the rich rulers who oppress the population and the ones who want to help the unfortunate.  Let us call these rich rulers the “oppressors”. For those who want to help the unfortunate it is a big ego boost to their self-esteem. These type of people can be called ‘do gooder’s’.  Without the ones who oppress then where would these ‘do gooder’s’ get their ego boost? If all these “do gooder’s” were to toss away their self esteem then the result would be that the oppressors would have to receive their own Karma for their inequality rule on and of the masses.  This would result in the masses of poor people waking up.  Equality would be the result. Think about it.  The “do gooders” are no longer “do gooder’s”  So the poor have to fend for themselves.  With the poor fending for themselves then they rise up against the “oppressors”. The result is the world enters equality.  So is this result a communist system or capitalist system?  Maybe neither or a blend of the two.  People become responsible for themselves but with this responsibility comes understanding. Understanding leads to the whole world knowing their place within the Cosmos.  With understanding comes appreciation.  This is an appreciation for those who are our creators and nurturers.  With understanding comes the realisation that when one is within one’s puzzle piece then responsibility disappears. With the world in equality then duality comes to an end.  Duality governments will have had their day.  No longer will their be oppressive governments so there will be no need for Governmental resistance. The way is simple, just give over your will to the Divine.  The way out is to go through. All rebel groups stop your fighting and let the Governments oppress the people.  The people will then wake.  Give up the role of white knights.  Let the people learn their lesson. Eternally Alan The secret Of Winning The secret of Winning is simple for the simple and complex for the complex.  The secret is to lose.  The one who is the looser is the winner. In the Cosmos there are no winners nor losers as there is only equality.  However here in the 3D, which is a space created for the experiment in free will, there are so called winners and losers. To get ahead in this 3D the best way is to remove all attachment of ownership.  For we come with nothing and leave with nothing. By being a loser one actually becomes the winner.  By one’s own so called “free will” one has the desire to get ahead.  If one believes that they are above others then they believe that they deserve to win. The only one who deserves to win is the one who loses.  How is this paradox solved? The answer is simple and that is to shift one’s conscious to work for others in the job of helping others to lose. So how can one work for others in the job to help them lose without being caught up in the game of superiority.  The answer is simple and that is to reduce the ego to zero. One who has zero ego can work for others to assist them to lose.  Such a being is seen to win by those caught up in 3D ego mentality. What happens to the gain or winnings?  These are used to support the Cosmic worker in their work.  Money and riches do not mean a thing for Cosmic workers.  In the process of helping others lose the Cosmic worker does become rich. What happens to the losers?  They hit rock bottom.   Then they examine why they are here and hopefully take action to correct their errors. Do not mistake the Cosmic worker getting rich with the Materialists who exploit everyone else to get ahead.  The Cosmic worker does not exploit anyone but uses Cosmic wisdom to assist them to win.  Of course the win from the 3D perspective is a loss. This Cosmic wisdom is available to everyone.  One only has to surrender one’s Will over to that of the Divine Father and merge with the Divine Mother.  Some Cosmic workers do get caught up in the gaining of wealth and do fall down but help is always at hand for those who ask. The secret of winning is to work for the greater good of all and for the Cosmic worker this is to assist others to lose.  However once the fallen worker has lost then they can be assisted by Cosmic workers to realise that they have no choice. Having no choice they have to also join Cosmic workers and regain their Cosmic heritage. Serendipity and Energy at Work For the greater good of all the spreading of abundance.  To help you achieve this here are links to various Australian only  freebie sites.   Everything good in this world is free.  We don't have to pay to watch the serendipity all aound us.   This world is a magic world like that of the Hogwarts school of magic all help will be given here for those who ask.   It is no accident that Harry Potter is bringing magic back into our lives via our children.  It is no accident that the religions don't like Harry Potter as witch craft is the destruction of beliefs.   On the greater scale witch craft only is small in power compared to Cosmic energy however it is certainly a step in the right direction. http://startinaustralia.com/freebies/ http://www.splash.net.au/FREEBIES.html http://blackstump.com.au/free.htm http://www.myshoppinglist.com.au/ http://www.lottos.com.au/ http://www.emailcash.com.au/ http://www.shopfree.com.au/shopfree.asp Surprises all around We all like surprises but have you ever wondered why?  You might disagree but if someone came up to you with a gift would not you be happy?  One might say that it depends on the gift but if you had the choice of accepting it or not then the logical person would accept gifts that make them happy. When one advances in conscious there will always be surprises.  How can one be surprised it one knows what is going to happen?  The simple truth is that as one progresses down the open road little surprises become everyday events so it is true that they don’t surprise us as much.  So the surprises take on a new level but there still are surprises. When one has no ego then one gains as much pleasure from another one’s surprise as if it were his own.  What pleasure it gives me to hear that one has turned inward due to them reading my words.  Not that these words are mind but they come through me from the greater ME. Here in the 3D we are acting out a play and in the other dimensions others are watching. What sort of show would they have if we weren’t surprised?  Are not those that are trying to see into the future trying to take away all surprises. This is not to say that we shouldn’t look into the future but we should only see those events necessary for us to see.  In the process of seeing them we shift our view and attitude to alter the future. Events in the now never turn out exactly like the viewer sees them except maybe if entities in other dimensions send us the vision.  For then it is no longer our attempt to see the future.  Even Einstein said that the observer in the process of observing changes the experiment thus via the uncertainty principle one is never sure what the experimental result was or will be.  In other words one may know the position of an object but not the exact time or visa versa. Of course this uncertainty principle is solved in theory when one goes up in dimensions. But  is it really solved?.  In each dimension there is always uncertainty.  Is this a paradox?  Paradox and uncertainty go hand in hand. If one ones to see into the future thus eliminating surprises then acceptance is thrown out the door.  If we can’t accept then how can we serve the ONE.  Is not serving the ONE our goal or have the goal posts been moved? It all comes back to going with the flow, accept the events around you and let the Divine Mother do the driving.  This is not to say that we won’t occasionally attempt to drive for we have to get hands on experience at how the Cosmos works.  So we attempt and crash. Fun and games is the result. The intelligent among us observe others crashing and deduce that crashing is not fun but real intelligence is gained by merging with the Divine Mother.  Can you see the paradox here? The paradox is that those with real wisdom have merged with the Divine Mother and know the result of trying to drive but those who think that they are wise without merging have merged.  In other words without total vision of the Divine Mother how do we know if we are doing the wise thing or not? Surprises will be see all around let serendipity take effect.  Accept the surprises and prises as they are appreciation. Appreciation comes to those with a connection as they are the ones who show the way.  Those holding the torch get oil to keep the torch shinning even brighter. SURRENDER Surrender you have no choice.  Doom and gloom will come for those who oppose so surrender now!  Surrender to what?  Surrender to the greater energy or God if  this God is the greater energy. The religions have been plugging this line for ages and the result has only been a society more easy to control.  However an unbalanced system can only succeed as long as the ones at the bottom of the food chain allow. When those at the bottom demand equality then the system breaks down.  Religion has had it’s day so how can order be restored to the system without their being a pyramid. Pyramid systems are parse, they are  out, finished, no more. Quite simply there still has to be surrender but not to any being on the same level.  Those on the same level serve each other in equality.  So one surrenders to the greater energy. What is the greater energy?  This is the energy that permutates everything .  Some call this energy the para-atma others call it the Divine Mother. Service is a two way exchange that involves one or more parties.  If there is only one party then there is no service.  We all come from the ‘ONE’ energy so within the ‘ONE’ there is no service.  It is only be coming out from the ‘ONE’ that we can serve. If one has no ego and can’t tell the difference between the self and others then how can there be service?.  If one has not the ability to judge which energy is greater then the other then how can there be service?.  Service can only be performed if one has a connection to All or to the ONE energy where we all came.  All religions or belief systems are wrong in their saying that one should be humble and serve because one is small.  Quite the opposite one only serves when one has the wisdom to serve and this is only obtained when one has merged with the Divine Mother. Simply one has to merge with the greater Mother energy so to obtain the wisdom to tell. So the Mother energy orders all and puts all into order.  This is the purpose of the divine. The above applies for this realm but for others different energies can take on different roles.  This is to create balance.  Throughout creation a blue vein travels and within this vein there are a circle of brothers.  The role the brothers take on varies in different realms. If you like call these eternal energies.  Though in our realm here Lucifer and Jesus are the sons of the divine whom guide with the assistance of the other brothers.  In other realms the roles could switch. It has been said that the Earth is a projection from the Jesus energy and since one can’t separate Jesus from his brothers it means that the Earth can also be considered a projection from the other brothers. Eternal energies have no ego hence one can’t defiantly say when one energy stops and another begins. Hence the question of surrender is more complex then it seems.  There is no pyramid system so one in actuality surrenders to a level.  If Jesus and Lucifer are on a certain level then this is the level that others of the 37 surrender to. Is essence the outside circle of the 37 surrenders to the inside circle.  The remainder of the humans surrender to the 37 as a whole. Do we surrender to love?  We do however love can’t be defined.  We can only surrender to the three principles that love carries these are truth, equality and unity.  As long as we have an ego we can only serve the self but this service includes reducing the ego so as we progress we serve others without even knowing it.   When we return to the ONE we are surrendered to LOVE. I t